Monday, 15 June 2015


Yeap. Still using that Malaysian date format. And yeap, a night I feel like updating my blog after so long.

My first trip in my life to Los Angeles.

I've been busy with life. I've change a lot since I last blogged. Mostly on my life accomplishments, like...

I got over my first boyfriend and realize I didn't love him anymore,
I realize I can fell in love once again,
I got addicted to League and bought my first skin,
So cutie, I'm so obssessed with her!
"In the name of Demacia, I will punish you!"
I got into an Engineering degree program in a new university,
I got my own social circle in America,
I went to LA,
I can get along well living with people other than my own family,

I... don't know, improved a lot and grew up. 

I am at the point of my life where I am still struggling with many things, in the mean time know that I will be successful soon. I thought about what I really want in my life. What I really want is to make my parents have comfortable life, both my mom and dad.

I guess I figured out what I ultimately want in my life, I want a job, a car and a house. My life doesn't have to be adventurous to be interesting. All I care is about making my family happy. My family includes my dear aku-papa and ahkim-mama in Penang who helped to raise me.

Here's a not-so-fancy picture of me with the Dean of College of Science and Engineering during the Dean's list banquet for the Fall 2014 semester. This is how I look on the day I'm having an exam prior attending the event.

 My kind of business casual, a sweater of a unicorn puking rainbow. I deserve a trophy.
I got 4.0 last semester. So, I'm gonna get another of this kind of photo next semester again. Weeee (I don't look as chubby than I was in that photo now)

I went to the cinema today and watched "Spy". It was amazing, and I love how amazing Melissa McCarthy rock the flowy dress.
Can't find the full body view of the dress on the internet. LOL.

To do list now, thanks to those ads before "Spy", I need to read John Green's "Paper Towns" before I go watch the movie. Why? Cause fucking Cara Delevinge is in that movie. ♥♥♥♥♥♥ I need to do the whole new cycle like what I did to TFIOS. Just some chick flick shit I'm going through, don't judge.

Signing off. Bye. Tomorrow I haz a 2pm fucking Engineering core class. Ughhhh

P.S: I still love blogging no matter what. It's just my shit and my blog is where I can look on the internet and feel good about myself, unlike my Youtube videos. *hides face and runs away

Saturday, 2 August 2014

I Think...

Hi, Hello, How are you,
                                          to whoever reading this. It's been awhile =P. 2 months, I guess?

It's a very different life for that particular 2 months. I made really huge changes in my life. I get drunk for the first time. I started getting data plan for my phone. I go out on Friday nights. I step outside of my comfort zone trying things out.

I changed.

Values and perspective in life.

Yet, I still has this burden that the last relationship made me carry on. I didn't know what it is until a few days back, I talk to him.

We talked like normal friends. At least we try. Because we used to be best buddy. So intimate and so close. We know each other so well. We talked calmly about what has been going on with our life after the breakup. We talked about what's our plan for future like we used to, except that we are no longer present in each others' future or plans.

That wasn't sad cause someone told me, "You have to be happy when you breakup cause that's when you learn what works for you and what doesn't."


It's August and I'll be going to new university soon! I'm so excited and happy. In the mean time having mixed feelings like I always do for everything that happens in my life.

I think I'm recovered from the breakup. =)
I think my life is back on track right now. ♥

I'm glad you came into my life before. It was beautiful, except that I was too emotional after the breakup. Sorry for what I've done and not done for you. Good luck, my dear friend! 

So, this is how it feels when you recovered from breakup?

I grew. I appreciate every good and bad moments in my life. I'm back. :)

Sunday, 8 June 2014

Book Review #1

In addition to the excerpt below, I really love the book because it makes me wonder would I date a person who is having a cancer. In other words, are you going to date a person that you know he or she is going to leave you?

In the end, we all did.

The Fault in Our StarsThe Fault in Our Stars by John Green
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

After dwelling myself in life encounters and the book, I learn to embrace the roller coaster ride in my personhood. It's a good book to pick yourself up if you're going through a breakup like me.

"The world is not a wish-granting factory."-Augustus Waters, The Fault in our Stars

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